Level 5 :{Needles Through Heart}

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ tears...just too sad..too hurt to hold it back...how could this be...?I can't believe it...my prince's sis told me that maybe he hate us...don't know why...but he didn't pick up any of our call...even didn't find me after he blow me off asking me to be online...so hurt...but what can I do...I respect his choice...Its just so sad that I feel my faith to him is starting to fade...like he is going to find a girl out there....but even if that happens I won't give it up waiting...
So many qestions...just felt like something is going on there...why does every day is like a needle piercing through my heart.... I though he would reply me messages after so long...but no respond...what to do...maybe he is so busy...that he forgot to call or to pick up...or even remember his promise...well we are oceans apart...so as a princess...I have to be patient and wait no matters how long and how tiring...I have to keep my faith....
Well....everything is just normal...just a bunch of schoolworks given by idiots...and piano exams that is coming up...and bitch dog is not bothering me for the timing...just want to say to my prince...really love and mizz him alot....

Level 4 :{Complicated}

Don't know what should I be.....well actually very very sad....because my prince told me to be online on our 1 month...but guess he turned me up....kept me waiting because it was such a great chance..but nothing.... just plain dissapointment...very very hurt.....maybe he forgot.., but why he asked me to be there when he forgot..,or maybe something came up... but whatever it is...,its just very sad....a sudden sadness wash away my happiness....just so unfair to me...so so unfair...
Well.....that was just a begining I guess...that bitch dog keep acting like she is the boss again!!!!!!!so hate her!!!!!!!!such a plastic...clean, hard,PLASTIC!!!!!!!!!even a dog wouldn't want to get near her... hahahaha....she really is such a MAJOR SLUT!!!!!!!!!
Anyway...,so happy more of my great accompanion start to know her character...so they also felt irritated...interested to join me and my partner's plan...that's why I said that don't mess with us...we can be very very mean and cruel....play a game with us and we will play it till the end...cause we have alot of spare tools....
Waaaaaaaa..........where is my prince..? why does he have to treat me like this...I just wish he could take me away...leave all these trouble and stress behind....T.T.T.T.T.T......., don't he know that it is very tiring and suffering to wait....I can't take those tears anymore....,can't hold much longer...what did I do wrong..?why do you keep giving me a little happiness and wash them away with dissapoinment?what do you want me to do so that you will get my message...?please...PLEASE....just a voice from you or a message from you...that will be enough for me to face my stress and trouble...or even give me the strength to keep waiting...just a "hi" will do...I don't ask for more....really...
Wordless...very very conflict....feel like giving up my life...too much trouble...stress...and too much of waiting...too hurt...speechless...just too much things that keep coming....too much...

Level 3 :{Just A Shadow}

A kind of feeling that is so hard to explain....feels like I am treated like a shadow....only seen when the sun comes out but is ignore when darkness is in the air...A shadow that is easily forgotten and stepped on because they feel that it is nothing special...
Well...,I am just like that only something special happened to me then people will notice..but I don't care about my existance...It's just that they stepped on me because I am not like the others..,always do things right and are always perfect....
Guess maybe that's why the prince hardly keep in touch with me..,because I am not miss perfect because I am just an unimportant person in life like a shadow...only need me when really needed but it's ok with me though it's hurting...I'll get used to it soon...just a matter of time...
Anyway.....I am the kind of person who keeps all the feelings inside when being stepped or forgotten and just share with some understanding friends...but unfortunately...I still can't find a person who really understands....because all of them that I share with never been in my situation before...so yeah,...I don't blame them....

Level 2 :{Huge Waves}

Still no news from the prince...maybe those assigment keeps on burrying him until he can't even see the world...So sad that this time no wishes from him when I am going to the state level debate...maybe he forgot..,yeah..too much assigment to care until there is no time for him to reply a message or to me...but actually I am so concern because I don't know how long I can hold til he comes back...don't anyone know that waiting is a tiring thing especially when the distance is an cean apart...but I still keep my faith...because I trust him....
By the way,debate is here...so nervous and happy...,state level..,must win...because its my last year...talk about that,SPM is near too...but my results are just enough for me to breath..so gotta try even harder...worst is those idiot will give us more pressure...now we are treated like robots....man..when can we be humans again...?
Anyway...that bitch dog is such a slut...,I just can't stand her...how can she act so smoothly...making people believe in her lies...!!!!!!!!maybe she does black magic...no wonder people will fall in her trap...poor innocent people....they are her guinea pig....
Well...,stress out in everything...really really hope for miracles to happen...but most of all really love the prince...maybe that's why I miss him so so much...and keep me holding on and waitng for his return...